what happened to my life.

It's almost the end of the school year, and i haven't really posted something great about my new found friends.


You know how they say that junior life is the most exciting part of your high school? I believed that, so I really expected a lot. But, all my hopes were not met. because I really had a hard time.

Imagine having three science subjects, with CHEMISTRY as your major. WTF! It's as if you put yourself on fire, and wait for yourself to burn.

But, besides the subjects, there are other things that made my life hard.
Our covers were blown. Someone realized we don't like her, and that's true. I admit that. But, whenever I meet her, we exchange cold glances against each other, as if we don't know each other. Well, that's fine with me. I don't really care anyway.

Also, I found friends who were very different from my friends in the past years of my high school life. This year, I encountered three kinds of problems with them. LOVE♥ and SCHOOLÜ and FRIENDS☼.



They were inlove. or so they thought. I don't really believe them, because I believe in a deeper meaning of love. Infatuation. That's what they call it. and most of them, they are infatuated, with who? I can't tell.
But I ride with them. I share advices(even if I don't really think it can help, i just base it form the shows on tv, thinking life is a great teleserye), I joke with them, and even admitted that I was inlove with someone.

I just realized that I wasn't. I was too young for those kind of things, and school is more important to me than having crying moments. I proved myself to be infatuated.



More so, my classmates also experienced a lot about school, so I helped. In every way I can. I was ranked 1 in our class, so this is the moment. I was sure I can help. So i tried. But I disappointed myself. I was not able to help. Maybe in little things, but I never really made a difference.

So i stopped volunteering. I was offering help, but you need to come to me. You need me right? you come ask.

I also had another question this year. what's with DOTA? It's some kind of game I don't really understand, but they risk money in order to just play. WTF! they were failing already, and yet they still prioritize it. Stupid right? I have tried a lot of ways to stop them, but i guess, it's already a reason to enter a rehab. It's called ADDICTION.



So. two down, one to go. Friends. I have found new friends, and I was a bit culture shocked when i met them. They were not that serious in studying, unless really needed.
So I tried to blend in, and I did. actually, I did not have a hard time in doing so.

Everything was alright, until these people grew apart from each other. The originals weren't together anymore, and it seems that, they were just lying to each other.

I don't think people like that can be called best friends. Maybe classmates, but never best friends, or true friends.

I also don't like the idea of being involved in such big issues without hearing the side of teh other party. I listen to both sides before I make a decision.

It's hard to take sides, especially when you are in the middle.


So, in summarization, my junior life was bombarded with problems, not even my own.

and i had FUN.


It was ahrd, everything is, but still I'm glad to have my people.

ILOVEMYPEOPLE.